Today was a great day, very inspiring and at the same time difficult.
hearing Gods voice is not an easy thing, we need to be aware, open and willing to listen from Him and we need to be clean, holding on to nothing, clean and empty-handed in order to receive from Him the fullness of His voice.
Even though, God did not stir up much in me today, yesterday i must mention, He did, He put thoughts in my mind and feelings in my heart, He showed me that there is one thing i needed to do and that was to forgive someone who has hurt me and my family.....who else could have convicted me of a sin i have been bearing for 2 years but the Holy Ghost?. if that was the Holy Ghost, then it was God who spoke to me.
Forgiving goes beyond feelings and emotions, forgiving is a decision, pure and simple a decision we make once we have received from God the fullness of His being, His love and compassion, i think i should ask God for His heart, to see how He feels about the murderers, the rapist, thieves and all others who wander without Him.His eyes to see the cruel reality, they are marching into hell.
Often times i found myself preaching to Muslims about the God that wants me to forgive my enemies, the God that commands me to pray for my enemies and do good to those who hate me, do good to all those who do wrong to me, that how we Christians are much better than them, how their religion promotes and encourages violence and revenge against enemies yet i find myself in a horrible dilemma when i do not forgive the fella that did wrong to me, when i in my heart commit the most horrendous crime ever....
What do i do with Matthew 5:44(love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you) and what do i do with Luke 6:27( love your enemies and do good to those who hate you) what do i do with that?
Jesus clearly said that if i do not forgive my transgressors  He certainly will not forgive me Luke 6:15 But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
i saw my heart today and it was utterly rotten,rotten by unforgiveness and bitterness, by cravings for revenge, my heart has been a murderous heart by just wishing his utter destruction.
May God forgive me for being so unforgiving. may He have mercy on me and may He help me forgive.
peace to you all from God the Father
Tavo